Chaard's Chat!

to live or not to live?

2006-08-09T10:30:00.000+07:00

bukan hal baru buat orang di sekitar gue,
kalo tau idup gue sangat sangat sangat gak sehat.

alkohol.
sex agak bebas.
begadang.
stress.
gak olah raga.
gak makan sayur.
demen gorengan.
slalu makan telor.
drugs kadang2.

tunggu waktu aja sih sampe ada satu vonis penyakit.
itu kata orang2 yang nekat nakut2in gue slama ini...

yeap!
reality really bites, after all.

sbulan ini gue dah ngerasa ada yg gak beres.
gak beres ma body gue.
gak beres banget.

so far:
darah tinggi.
tinggi banget.

vonis berat.
apalagi buat gue.
buat gue yang emang terbiasa ma idup jenis gak sehat tadi.

mudah-mudahan gak "nempel" ke vonis berikutnya.
serem? you bet!

doain yaa, temans.

me.
back to healthier life. please deh.. :)

what's my biggest metamorphoself?

2006-02-27T21:58:00.000+07:00

dulu...

gue selalu takut buat jadi diri sendiri.
takut buat ngaku siapa gue.
takut buat percaya ada yang baik ama gue untuk nyimpen crita gue.
takut banget.

kayanya gak ada yang bisa bikin gue bisa jujur.
jujur sejujurnya.
kasian yaa gue?

tapi itu dulu.
sekarang?

akhirnya gue bisa jujur.
akhirnya ada yang bisa bikin gue jujur.
akhirnya ada yang bisa bikin gue percaya.
jujur untuk jadi diri gue yang sebenar-benarnya.
gak nipu2 lagi kaya dulu.
gak sembunyi2 lagi kaya dulu.

senangkah gue?
banget. :)

so, what's my biggest metamorphoself?
to finally trust myself.

what's yours?

me.
back to myself.

how low can you go?

2006-02-27T11:05:00.000+07:00

it's over.
i know!

it's time to have sex with stranger?
i can't.

how low can i go?
not that low.

i guess.

me.
back to up up and away.

should i, could i, would i?

2006-02-19T15:32:00.000+07:00

sms:
call me.
i need you.

the reply:
why?
am occupied ryte now.
texted me?

sms:
no need.
tx.

call a friend:
am screwed.

the reply:
end it.
it's been too long to even understand.

the reply:
i will.

will i?

me.
back to backless.

soulmate, from friendster bulletin. have you met mine?

2006-02-17T11:52:00.000+07:00

13 signs of your soulmate.

13. when your on the phone with them late at night and they hang up but you miss them already when it was just five minutes ago...

12. you read their texts over and over again...

11. you walk really slow when you're with them...

10. you feel shy whenever you're with them...

9. when you think about them, your heart beats faster and faster...

8. you smile when you hear their voice...

7. when you look at them, you can't see the other people around you... all you see is him/her...

6. you start listening to slow songs, while thinking of them...

5. they become all you think about...

4. you get high just from their scent...

3. you realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them...

2. you would do anything for them...

1. while reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time...

me.
back to more rational subject.

wanna come in?

2006-02-15T18:30:00.000+07:00

dating. kencan.

sebagai single forever yang tengil,
gue cukup sering kencan2 gak jelas.
name it-laah: blind date, double date, after hrs date, etc.
sering banget gue lakukan selama 3 tahun ini.
tapi, standard banget kalo gue pikir2 kencan2 gue.
bete-laah!

maksud gue soal standard:
dine out.
crita ini, crita itu.
sharing ini, sharing itu.
tanya ini, jawab itu.
tanya itu, jawab ini.
blah blah blah.

end upnya ada dua macem.
slalu dua pilihan.
biasanya dua pilihan.

satu:
dibikin bete.
atau bikin bete.
atau brantem.
trus, anter dia pulang.
brenti di ujung jalan, atau depan rumah.
atau diem2an ampe rumahnya.
atau brenti depan silver bird.
trus, pulang ke rumah gue ndiri.
telpon temen.
marah2 di telpon ke temen gue.
mandi.
nonton dvd.
ngabisin rokok berbatang-batang.
brusaha tidur.
guling ke kiri, balik ke kanan.
nelpon temen lagi.
cari temen yg juga insomnia.
crita2 lagi.
neken lelap.
tidur.

atau pilihan ke dua:
jadi horny.
check in.
guling2an.
slesai.
ngerokok sebatang.
ngobrol bentar.
mandi.
salah satu pulang ke rumah.
atau kadang2 kalo lagi seru banget, tidur smaleman.
pagi2: breakfast.
trus, masing2 ngantor.

beberapa waktu lalu gue kencan lagi.
lagi2 dengan orang baru! hehe...
kencan yang lewat batas standard buat gue.
kencan yang perfect, harusnya.
teman kencan yang perfect, sepertinya.
tidak ada "kembang api", sayangnya.
tidak perfect.

di akhir kencan sempurna,
si dia bertanya: mampir yuk?

analisa redaksi:
mampir?
bisa mampir untuk ngopi.
untuk nge-wine.
untuk nonton dvd.
atau untuk bobo2 sayang.
dan itu di rumahnya!

gue bengong.
gue geleng kepala.
gue cium.
gue pulang.

di jalan gue ketawa. miris.
akhirnya, ada juga yang ngajak mampir ke rumah.
mampir ke rumah setelah kencan.
pertanyaan sangat standard.
sangat standard buat dia.
sangat biasa buat semua orang, kayaknya.
tapi, udah luar biasa buat gue.
beda banget buat gue!
hehehe...

sayangnya, gue gak punya si "kembang api" tadi.
but still, you could be anyone best thing.
not mine.
damn!

me.
back to be happy in "standard".

have you heard this?

2006-02-08T13:00:00.000+07:00

gue sakit flu brats!

mata sembab kaya abis diputusin 8 kali dalam sehari.
badan sakit2 kaya abis digebugin 9 kampung.
kepala puyeng kaya abis mabok 10 botol jack d.
otak males mikir kaya abis ngiprit 11 malem.
kaki pegel2 kaya abis diopspek 12 kampus.
sluruh body kringetan kaya abis diperkosa 13 supermodel.

najis-laah!

minum obat? udah banget.
istirahat sejenak, dua jenak, dst? udah deh kayanya.
makan bergizi? udah lumayan-laah sekarang.
(sayup2 terdengar teriakan2 kampung org2 kantor gue...)

bingung juga mao ngapain lagi...

tapi,
akhirnya gue sembuh nii yee (vintage yaa kata2 gue?).
total nii jreng (retro gak kalo kata jreng?)!

resepnya?

minumlah redoxon dan 2 sendok makan madu!!!

heh????
ade apeeeee???r
resep paan tuh???
haree geneh dimadu?
(eh, minum madu maksut gue! hehe...)

hehe...

yah, akhirnya gue sembuh juga.
setelah suruhan2 gak penting dari temen gue.
dan setelah bantahan2 lebih gak penting dari gue.
akhirnya gue nyoba juga tuh resep.
dan manjur...!!!

kok bisa yaa??

tau ah.

yang jelas,
buat smua orang yang pada baca,
kalo lo flu, cobalah!
maka kau akan kaget dan terpana!

hehe...

sampai ktemu di postingan2 bodoh lainnya!

me.
back to "di-madu" sembari "nge-madu".

can you tell?

2006-02-06T11:28:00.000+07:00

pasangan ideal.
topik pembicaraan abadi antar teman.
gak akan pernah lekang oleh waktu kayanya.
smua orang punya pendapat.
smua orang punya jawaban.
smua orang punya impian.
termasuk gue, harusnya.

top 10 kualitas terbaik yg dipilih polling adalah:
01. smart
02. cakep
03. kaya
04. bgowl
05. sayang
06. perhatian
07. se-agama
08. udah kerja
09. setia
10. available

ada temen gue yang ngalamin smua.
ada temen gue yang ngalamin sebagian kualitas.
ada temen gue yang ngalamin satu kualitas saja.
ada temen gue yang ngalamin nol kualitas di atas.

gue ngalamin yang hanya sebagian kecil saja.
sangat kecil malah.
but, i'm happy with it.
i do!
or... i did?

can you tell? =)

me.
back to white lies.

according to nafa urbach: who do you think you is?

2006-02-03T12:16:00.000+07:00

lo butuh gue, gue ada.
lo nyari gue, gue ada.
lo nangis, gue ada.
lo ketawa, gue ada.
lo sms, gue ada.
lo ym, gue ada.
lo email, gue ada.
lo pergi, gue ada.
lo stay, gue ada.

kok gak sama efek, kalo dibalik ya?

gak nyambung.
gak pas.
gak bener.

gue tadi emang emosi.
tapi, lo kenapa?
mao lo apa sih?
gak jelas...
emang gak pernah jelas dari awal sih kayanya.

ps for ms. urbach:
it's "you are" yaaa, mbak.

me.
back to more re-think.

how are you?

2006-02-02T12:39:00.000+07:00

udah bulan februari 2006.
pas sebulan dari postingan terakhir gue.
apa aja yaa yang udah gue lewatin?
hmm..., cukup banyak yg gue bisa kenang (jiieee...).
tapi masih cukup sedikit yang bisa gue share.

sejauh yang bisa gue share:
01. gue baru klaar-in acara di bandung dengan cukup sukses.
02. gue "nge-kos" di hotel sani rosa bandung slama 7 hari.
03. gue "idup" di depan gedung sate slama 7 hari itu.
04. gue ngerasain bete, happy, dan sense-less di kota orang.
05. gue baru kehilangan 2 film yang gue sewa di subtitle.
06. gue lagi mikirin pake baju apa ke kawinan pritha.
07. gue lagi sibuk mikirin duit yang makin tiris... =(
08. gue baru aja meeting buat beberapa brief baru.
09. gue masih ngerasa eneg dengan beberapa orang.
10. gue masih bingung dengan masa depan gue.
11. gue lagi berpikir untuk mencoba hal2 baru.
12. gue lagi berpikir keras untuk menentukan karier gue.
13. gue lagi agak sering "oleng" karena minuman...
14. gue lagi jarang banget di jakarta.
15. gue baru melakukan hal bodoh di hotel maharaja.
16. gue lagi menyesal kenapa gue nginep di hotel maharaja.
17. gue mungkin masih jatuh cinta... (mungkin lho yaa!)

dan ada beberapa hal lagi.
sayang banget gak akan mungkin bisa gue share.
but, i'm fine.
amazingly fine!

point-nya adalah:
gue kangen seh nulis2 gak penting geneh.
tapi gak ngerti mao nulis apa.
bukan karena gak ada ide gak penting.
tapi karena gak ngerti mao nulis apa yang bisa gue share.

tau deh.
sampe ketemu deh yaa di postingan berikutnya!

me.
back to blogger.

where were you, asshole?

2006-01-03T20:50:00.000+07:00

let's see.
tequila? mmm...
jack d coke? hnn...
long island? rrgghh...

masih banyak lagi deh kayanya.

impactnya?

let's see.
nyolek2 orang? mmm-hmm...
ngomong jorok? nyeepp...
disko2 kampung? ho-oh...
nyium2 orang? wssss...

maaf buat yang ngerasa terganggu.
maaf banget.
gue udah ga inget.
gue udah ga ngerasa salah waktu itu.
maaf banget... =(

smua yang ngerasa seneng liat gue waktu itu,:
selamat. anda dapet hiburan gratis.
smua yang ngerjain gue malem itu:
terima kasih.

satu yang bikin jengkel:
where were you, asshole?

anyway, happy 06!
tx for the great party, pals.
despite everything i've been through that night,
i was having a blast. =)

me.
back to 2006.

what was that?

2005-12-26T19:10:00.000+07:00

postingan friendster dr joe.
my dear friend.

From: JoeKimChan
Date: Friday, December 23, 2005 1:29:00 PM
Subject: "Kesadaran Bercinta....."

Message:

Sebagaimana aku, kau pun paham
Ada kalanya CINTA mendatangkan kekacauan,
Seperti sekarang, yang meski kita kerjakan jadi tertunda...
Kini saatnya kita sadari,
CINTA adalah ikatan JIWA...CINTA itu MEMBEBASKAN,
tapi tak MEMBIARKAN....
Hakikat apa yang tertangkap di telingamu, waktu berbisik: "AKU CINTA PADAMU..."
samakah maknanya: "AKU INGIN MENGUASAIMU?"

Boleh jadi ya, meski SEJATInya bukan.
CINTA akan terus melanda MANUSIA,
Bukan lantaran tak BERDAYA...
tapi... LEBIH KARENA RELA...
Ayolah kita laksanakan kewajiban tanpa melonggarkan JALINAN BATIN KITA... sebab... CINTA YANG BAIK...
tak cuma untuk HARI INI,tapi JUGA buat nanti...
LIHATLAH!!!!
Diantara genggaman tangan kita,
ADA KEKOSONGAN... MARI KITA BERI API!

"Sitok Srengenge"
1987
(mungkin pada saat Sitok buat puisi ini, aku masih belum mengenal makna cinta sebenarnya... terima kasih karena ia membuka cakrawala pikiran manusia tentang pembahasan makna CINTA yang paling dalam... I love him... he is my favorite author)

nb:
I wish I can meet him someday...and talk more about his LOVE...

my comment:
count me in, joe. =)

me.
back to learn more. much more.

[dvd] till there was you?

2005-12-22T19:08:00.000+07:00

tadi malem gue nonton dvd.
judulnya "till there was you".
totally chick flick.

gue gak suka ma filmnya.

tapi, pemain2nya mengagetkan.
ada jennifer aniston chubby.
(chubby dan gondrong!)
ada sarah jessica parker kuno.
(tapi spatunya tetep keren!)
ada dylan mc dermot.
(bener gak sih nulisnya?).

trus ada beberapa lagi deh yg sekarang cukup happening.

rahasia gue:
biar gue gak suka ma filmnya,
cuma gue suka ma temanya...

ancur ya gue?
sok melo2 gimanaaaaaaa gitu yaa??
jijai gak sih?
hehe...

pertanyaan gue:
ada gak orang yang percaya ma kalimat tadi?
till there was you?

gue kok gak ya?

me.
back to denial.

what's new, pussycat?

2005-12-21T21:14:00.000+07:00

dearest mr. cupid,

you're great.
you're just stupid.
very stupid.

twice?

why?

me.
back to your spell. hello?

what were you thinking?

2005-12-20T12:28:00.000+07:00

berbuat bodoh.
menyesal.

terjelembab.
menyesal.

berbalik badan.
nglirik balik.
merhatiin berlebih.
berusaha menarik diri.
menyesal.

falling in love.
menyesal.

me.
back to fall. in winter.

do you remember me?

2005-12-19T09:40:00.000+07:00

Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasies
Well I'm all grown up now
Can you still help somehow?
I'm not a child but my heart still can dream

So here's my lifeful wish
My grown up Christmas List
Not for myself
But for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars will never start
And time will heal our hearts
Every man will have a friend
That right will always win
And love will never end
This is my grown up Christmas List

May kindness rules our lives
Not just the strong survive
Sweet tears for all the thousand years on mind
This is the world I pray
We will all share some way
Help me begin by reaching out my hand

No more lives torn apart
That wars will never start
And time will heal our hearts
Every man will have a friend
That right will always win
And love will never end
This is my grown up Christmas List

Why does this illusion call the innocence of you?
Maybe when the time believe we can find the truth
No...

No more lives torn apart
That wars will never start
And time will heal our hearts
Every man will have a friend
That right will always win
And love will never end
This is my grown up Christmas List

This is the prayer that I will keep
This is my grown up Christmas list
Christmas list

grown up xmas list.
i've got mine.
what's yours?

me.
back to sat upon somebody's knee.

can you read me?

2005-12-15T12:31:00.000+07:00

ahhh, dia kok ga negor gue ya?
kenapa ga nelpon yaa?
uhmm.. tadi gue nyuekin ya?

juo, lo kok gituh sih?
aduuhh, kepikiran mulu deh...
tuh kan, selalu gituh...
uh! sebel banget gue!
heergghh...! lo kenapa sih?

chiiyng, lo marah ma gue?
ih, sok kece lo!
no way! i don't love you!
tapi lo bisa kan dateng?
ah, ngeselin lo!

me.
back to old days.

waiting to exhale?

2005-12-14T22:40:00.000+07:00

(inhale)

kerja sama.

kerja untuk mencapai tujuan bersama.

bukan kerja bersama-sama (standard evaluasi).
bukan kerja buat membunuh sesama (standard bitchy gue).
bukan kerja sama musuh (standard ga jelas).
bukan kerja sama siapa ya (standard bingung).

bukan juga kerja sama sekolah ga mutu...!
(yg ini standard stress khusus kalo event school 2 school).

tingkat stress gue lagi tinggi banget hari ini.

(exhale)

me.
back to school.

whose line is it anyway?

2005-12-14T10:34:00.000+07:00

kamu keren sekali sayang...
(real: pedih)

eh, pinter banget sih kamyuu?
(real: gamang)

bo, ok deh lo...
(real: ingin)

btw, apa kabar yah dia?
(real: sakit)

mmm, congratulation yaa!
(real: bunuh diri?)

kadang-kadang,
seseorang memang harus bisa nutupin semuanya.

bisa kan, chaard?

me.
back to drama queen academy.

will i be there for you?

2005-12-13T20:25:00.000+07:00

the heart:

tayangggg...

seneng deh chiyyng liat lo happy.
seneng banget.

bahagia deh gue ngeliat lo bahagia.
bahagia berat!

terharu banget gue liat lo tadi.
terharu abiss...

hmmm...
seneng, bahagia, terharu?
lagi happy yaa, chaard?

the deeper heart:

enggak.
gue sedih.
dan gak jelas.
lebih gak jelas dari biasanya.

but i'll be there for you.
that's for sure.

me.
back to my phone. watching you.

do i make myself clear?

2005-12-12T20:04:00.000+07:00

sudahlah.

kata sapa punya temen enak?
kata sapa punya temen yg sering diajak ngobrol enak?
kata sapa chiyyngg?

sudahlah.

ga penting banget.
berasa buang-buang waktu gak sih lo?

sudahlah, nak.
sudahlah, mbakyu.
sudahlah, jeung.
sudahlah, zus.
sudahlah, mas.

makanya yaaa...
baek-baek deh laen kali ngambil sikap.
apalagi sikap ke temen lo.
eh, temen kan ya?

aaahh, sudahlah.

asli.
sudahlah.

sekali lagi, sudahlah!

me.
back to next life. better life!

how could you?

2005-12-11T12:20:00.000+07:00

could you?
sadly, you could.

would you?
unfortunatly, you would.

were you?
amazingly, you were...

you'll die!

me.
back to solitaire.

are you okay?

2005-12-09T21:26:00.000+07:00

19.51 wib:

hp gue bunyi.
sms dari temen gue.
cewek keren.
cosmopolitan, fashionista.
menderita.

"chaard, i just let him go.
back to his own family.
just drop him off to his home.
it was damn hurt..."

gue diem.

gue ga ngerti musti bilang apa.
musti reply apa.
musti nenangin gimana.
musti jadi sahabat yang bagaimana.
musti jadi sahabat baik seperti apa.

gue ga pernah bisa ngelepasin seseorang.
bener-bener rela ngelepasin.
apalagi seseorang yang gue cinta.

gak pernah.
belum pernah.

elo bener djuo.
gue terlalu egois buat ngerti.
gue ga pernah ngalamin kejadian kaya temen gue ini.

ga pernah.
belum pernah.

ga ngerti.
belum bisa ngerti.

ga tau.
belum mau tau.

sms tadi ga gue reply.

19.54 wib:

gue tetep diem.
mematikan hp.

me.
back to sad friday.

thank's, but no thank's?

2005-12-08T08:33:00.000+07:00

thanksgiving weekend.

di amrik.
bukan dimari makute (hehe...)!

gue ga ngerayain. jelas!
pertama: secara fisik, gue lokal poll!
kedua: gue di jakarta kaleee!?

tapi ada temen gue yang ngerayain!
kebetulan dia lagi di ohio.
kalo dia di jakarta trus ngerayain mah kebangetan deh!

ini thanksgiving pertama dia.
dan dia sangat "gembira".
pagi ini emailnya jadi full bukti-laah!

hmmm...
kalau saja gue ngerayain,
kira2 apa yang bakal gue "thank you"-in yaa?
dan apa yang gak bakal gue terima kasih-in?

buat gue,

thank you:
kesehatan bokap gue.
kesehatan gue.
kesehatan temen-temen gue.
kesehatan madonna (penting buat gue!)
kerjaan? iya deh.

no, thank's:
tsunami!
bom bali!
terorisme!
britney spears!
kevin federline!
"chaotic", their tv show!

hehe...
happy thanksgiving, pal!
enjoy!

[inpspired from my friend's email and people magazine's article]

me.
back to dki jakarta.

have you seen her?

2005-12-07T09:07:00.000+07:00

last night.
i went out with one of my friend.
dine out.
[casual]

we were talking about everything.
work. family. life.
[casual]

we were end up talking about something.
something we were both in common.
the "old flame".
the everlasting old flame.
[still in casual way...]

i was talking about mine.
he was talking about his.
[very casual way]

my stories:
her activities.
her friends.
her life.
her love.
her love to me.
her everything.

his stories?
the same. sort of.

[totally in casual way!]

we were laugh.
a lots.
[casual, right?]

our everlasting flame.
our beloved late moms.

then, i went home.

i dunno about my friend,
but i miss my mom.
[in every ways...]

me.
back to the future.

want to see who has viewed your profile?

2005-12-06T22:00:00.000+07:00

loading...

and:

"sorry! you cannot see who has viewed your profile
since you are viewing profiles anonymously.
if you want to start tracking who is viewing your profile,
go to your settings and change your anonymous setting to "off"."

friendster.

i cannot see who has viewed my profile anymore.
since i've decided to go anonymous.

you win some, you lose some.
right?

log out, anyone?

me.
back to "home".

won't you marry me?

2005-12-06T10:06:00.000+07:00

beberapa minggu ini gue sering ngerasa eneg.
jauh lebih sering daripada biasanya.

ga tau kenapa,
banyak banget yang sering tiba2 nanya ke gue:
"chaard, lo mao merit ya?"

atau yg lebih najis dan sok yakin:
"selamaat yaa, chaard! siapa perempuan sial itu?"

gue speechless.

ga tau isyu darimana.
ga tau informasi apa.
ga tau gimana jawabnya.
ga tau awalnya darimana.

pertanyaan2 itu datangnya bertubi-tubi.
dari crowd yang berbeda-beda.
dari media yang berbeda-beda.
bertubi-tubi!

mulai dari sms.
terus testimony di fs.
terus nanya lewat temen deket gue.
terus nanya ke keluarga gue.
terus nanya langsung ke gue lewat email.
dan beberapa lagi yang langsung ke gue.

ade apeeee?

usut punya usut,
ternyata berawal dari postingan di fs.
satu postingan chain mail ga penting di fs.

postingan dengan subject:
"datang yaaa ke kawinan gue di hotel mulia!"

sangat ga penting!

me.
back to single life forever.

[tv show] how low can you go, tara?

2005-12-05T12:57:00.000+07:00

wild on.
e channel original.
i (used to) love it.

the hosts?
brooke burke? perfect!
cindy taylor? mm.. ok.
tara reid? heh????

why????
for god sake, why?

she's not hot.
she's totally dumb bitch.
she's ugly.
her fashion statement is: duh?
her boobs are too big.
her face? oh my god!
she's nothing!

and did i mentioned: she's very much stupid?
she's very very very, and very stupid!

puh-leezzz!

tara-dise?
more to tara-ble for me, ms. reid.

me.
back to "spit on" tara.

[weekend] thank you?

2005-12-04T15:33:00.000+07:00

barusan salah satu boss klien gue nelpon.
klien yang kemarin baru gue buatin acara di lembang.
acara "itu".

dia bilang:
thank you. acaranya bagus banget.
mereka semua puas.
jangan bosen2 dan jangan marah kalo mereka bawel.
salam buat semua team gue.

marah?
bosen?
capek?

semuanya udah ilang, pak.
ga ada sama sekali.
sama sekali!

dan tadi gue masih nanya kenapa gue cinta ma klien gue ini?
bodohnya gue!

=)

me.
back to another client proposal.

[weekend] a blast from the past?

2005-12-04T14:15:00.000+07:00

i thought it was something that never really gonna happened.

never ever happened to me.

i was wrong.

but, i did good job.

everybody can relax now.

salute to my own dignity.

and smile to somebody's shameless face.

me.
back to disgusting-look.

[weekend] how do i love these people?

2005-12-04T12:49:00.000+07:00

manja2? pasti!
aneh2 mintanya? gituh deh.
galak2? iyalaah.
suka diperhatiin? banget!
ribet? perlu dijawab gak?

plus,
kali ini mereka dengan keluarganya!
orang tuanya, suaminya, istrinya, anak-anaknya, keponakannya, mertuanya, adiknya, kakaknya, baby-sitternya, supirnya...

njlimetnya jadi berkali-kali lipat.
benar-benar berlipat-lipat.

but, i do love these people.
i really do.

why?

i don't know.

[sedikit cerita bahagia dari event family gathering kemarin...]

me.
back to re-breath freely.

sweet december?

2005-12-01T11:16:00.000+07:00

a month of xmas.

what a sweet and cute boy like me could ask for more?

absolutly nothing!

happy december, people.
have a nice coldest month.

=)

me.
back to xmas cd.

spooky wookie dookie?

2005-12-01T00:06:00.000+07:00

this weekend special:
my client's internal family gathering.

organized by me. and my funky team.
scared team, actually.
but funky (hopefully).

horror?

pray.
more prays.
absolutly more prays.
and pray.

and guess what?
pray for even more.

please pray for me.

ps:
the venue is totally fabulous.
villa air, lembang.
fully recomended!

me.
back to pray. again.

who's your daddy?

2005-11-30T13:35:00.000+07:00

waktu kecil dulu...
di pramuka. ada ketua kelompok.
di kelas. ada ketua kelas.
di osis. ada ketua osis.
di senat. ada ketua senat.
di rumah. ada bokap.

trus, pas udah gede...
di pesawat. ada pilot.
di kapal. ada nahkoda.
di toko. ada manager toko.
di travelling. ada tour leader.
di jalan raya. ada polisi.
di kantor. ada boss.

everybody needs a leader.
a good one.

the end.

me.
back to my lovely leaders (love you guys!).

virgin suicide?

2005-11-29T08:32:00.000+07:00

careless.

speechless.

thoughtless.

helpless.

hopeless.

useless?

me.
(not!) back to you.

[weekend] drop dead gorgeous?

2005-11-28T13:53:00.000+07:00

after a while.
after a series of pains.
after a random pathetic life.
after every weekend activities.

i had sex.
again.

long time no see, pal.

whatta nite.
whatta weekend.
whatta pleasures.

guiltiest pleasure that is.

=)

[bandung, party, sex = great!]

me.
back to recharged life.

[weekend] saturday night fever?

2005-11-28T08:53:00.000+07:00

party after work.
party before work.
party between work.
party in saturday night.
party @ vertigo.
party for seven.
party for even more.
party with friends and "friends".

party?

party props available, btw.

party!

me.
back to "just say no!".

[weekend] oui?

2005-11-28T08:50:00.000+07:00

paris.

the capital city of fashion industry.
the capital city of style.
boutiques, shops, streets, hotels, restaurants, clubs, wherever.
one word: in-style.

great city.
great atmospheres.
great people.

i adore the language.

some says romantics.
some says sexy.
i'll say unique.

my favorite sentence is: "kumaha, kang?"

"kumaha"? heh?

you're right.
i'm talking about bandung.
our own paris.
paris van java.

[sebagian kenang2an indah survey keroyokan ke bandung]

me.
back to new wardrobes [and shades!].

is it enough?

2005-11-26T02:41:00.000+07:00

sorry.
sorry for everything i've said.
sorry for everything i've done.

anyway,
it's a friday.
another happy friday?
i hope...

have fun.

me.
back to "not-too-sorry-look-anymore".

what's your celebrity request list?

2005-11-25T11:38:00.000+07:00

pernah dengar soal raiders artis?

secara cepat maksut dari kata2 tadi adalah:
"daftar permintaan dari seorang celebrity atau artis yg dibutuhkan oleh artis dan celebrity tadi selama proses dia bekerja."

profesional requests.
tapi diselipin dengan personal requests juga.
amit-amit kan?

karena pekerjaan gue, kebetulan gue sempat cukup sering dapet raiders2 artis lokal dan beberapa semi inter-lokal.
najiskah? you bet!

personal listnya kaya gimana sih?
satu kata: nista! [mostly!]

artis yg terkenal dengan personal list nista:
a. mariah carey
b. madonna [it's ok-lah kalo buat dia! hehe]
c. jacko [surprise?]
d. christina aguilera
e. jessica simpson
f. en kalo lo butuh banget dengan artis lokal: dewa

banyaklaah.
lucu2 sekali deh.
dan: seru!

marilah kita bermain "andai-andai"... =)

andaikan elu menjadi seorang celebrity atau artis,
hollywood tentunya, what's your list?

maaf!
dilarang mengkhayal jadi celebrity lokal!
tanggung, gak aspirative sekaligus gak mutu!
hehe...

kebetulan nih temanz, gue donk udah punya list-nya!
[pastinya yaaaaa! hehe...]

6 top items di list gue kalo gue jadi celebrity najis hollywood:
1. kamar ganti dengan interior seperti di vogue living [uk]
2. kulkas full dengan ice cream haagen dazs
3. home theatre dan personal cigar lounge
4. buffet table full dengan makanan dari 9 junk food restaurants
5. open wine bar
6. spa service 24/7

ok gak? =)

pertanyaannya:
kalo gue jadi celebrity,
gue celebrity apa sih sbnernya?
khayalan gue sih gak muluk2-laaah:
former kid star turn to be a super sexy controversial mega rocker.
total celeb!

huahaha...

btw, udah tau list lo apa?

me.
back to "slave-dreaming" [mengkhayal babu].

[movie] don't you love magic?

2005-11-24T10:32:00.000+07:00

dear mr. potter,

i just watch your movie.
and like every breathing human in this world, i love it and enjoy every minute of it.
=)

i love your friends.
i love your teachers.
i love your school.
i love your sports.
i love your adventures.
i love your total production.
the pictures, the location, the costumes, the soundtrack, the techniques, the stories...

i love them all.
so much. too much.

and above all that,
i do really really love your magic.

avada kadabra?

ps:
your genk really aging gracefully.
thank god.

[harry potter and the goblets of fire]

me.
back to my own magical world.

why oh why?

2005-11-23T11:33:00.000+07:00

salahin ini.
salahin itu.
salahin sana.
salahin sini.
salahin dia.
salahin mereka.
salahin smuanya.
salahin anjing.
salahin bangsat.
salahin ngentit.

salahin gue?
mana pernaaahhhh?
tai-laah!

kerja kok salah2an???
pulang aja sana.
tidur.
maen.
huh!

haree geneeeehh maen salah2an?
kenapa yaaaa?

me.
back to wondering.

[movie] crazy/beautiful?

2005-11-22T19:32:00.000+07:00

oleh2 dari nonton film "belahan jiwa".

ide cerita?
lumayan.
cukup ok kalo mikir ini film indonesia.

sutradara?
ok-lah.
idealis.
somehow gue ngerasa dia juga feminis.
eh, tau yaa bener apa gak-nya.

pemain2 perempuannya?
(katanya) diva2 film indonesia.
oke2lah pastinya (harusnya).
sayang, di beberapa adegan lebih mirip "jam session" kalo di band.
tapi mungkin emang mereka jadinya kebawa yaa gara2 smuanya "ratu2" gituh.
cuman, emang cantik2 sih.
lumayan kehiburlah!

pemain laki?
najis.
salah castingnya total.
kasian deh.

lokasi?
okeh.
bali gitu lho...

terus apa lagi yaaaa?
oiya, rumah produksi?
agak mengherankan kenapa "dia" yg megang ya?
yah, jadinya gitu deh.
trenyuh? agak sih.

paket ancur dengan rumah produksi adalah team produksi donkkk.
(iyalaahhh!)

salah satu divisi paling kacau: art directing.
siapakah art directornya?
cari tau deh, gue agak gak enak nyebutnya.
buat gue agak jelek sih.
(udah baik gue bilang "agak" lho!)

satu yang juga di bawah batas "harapan" gue adalah: kostum.
padahal yg bikin tuh ichwan toha.
notabene harusnya keren.
tapi yg gue liat biasa banget.
mungkin budget yg dipotong-potong dengan si rumah produksinya.
hehe... teteup nyalahin "induk semang"!

overall:
biasa.
ga jelek2 amat.
tapi jelas2 ga bagus juga.
ngerti donk? =)

komentar terakhir:
titi kamal manaaa??
(pemenang "pertanyaan ga penting" award 2006. hehe...)

me.
back to smiles.

isn't it lovely?

2005-11-18T22:06:00.000+07:00

friday.
end of story.

=)

me.
back to haji nawi.

does "no" always come with "way"?

2005-11-17T11:38:00.000+07:00

g
u
e

b
e
t
e

b
a
n
g
e
t

!

harusnya berangkat kerja dengan hati nyaman.
harusnya hidup gue dah mulai tenang.
harusnya sistem kantor dah lebih ok.
harusnya ada jalan lebih baik buat ngurusin masalah.
harusnya gak ginih.

ternyata?

no way.

me.
back to my official-drop-mode.

who am i?

2005-11-16T12:40:00.000+07:00

You are a person who is keeping things to yourself.
You are a bit more choosy on friends and only hangout with those whom you think are on the same frequency.
What you want in your life is half fullfilled.
You are weak in your life and tends to be fragile.
You have high sex drive.
You have a few good friends in your life.
Your last relationship is not a good one and is not memorable to you.
Even when your partner is around you, you will flirt around with others.
You have an average ego.
A humble personality is in you.
You are not in good terms with your friends.
Your partner is pure and good in your heart.
Your partner is a very homely and humble person.
You seek your partner whenever you are met with problems.

----
quessioner2 ga penting.
quessioner2 via email.
quessioner2 meragukan secara logika.

beneran gue kaya gini emangnya?

hmmm...
for me to know,
and for you to find out. =)

me.
back to next email.

[tv show] how sitcom am i?

2005-11-16T09:04:00.000+07:00

laverne & sherley
bewitched
i dreamed of jeannie
the brady bunch
the odd couple
mork & mindy
three's company
jefferson
wkrp
mr. belvedere
taxi
alf
vicky
full house
the cosby show
kate & ally
family ties
who's the boss?
growing pains
saved by the bell
cheers
murphy brown
wings
the nanny
seinfeld
ellen
dharma & greg
suddenly susan
spin city
friends
malcolm in the middle
drew carey show
joey

and now: will & grace!

welcome to my fave sitcom list.
thank you subtitle.
finally!
gosh! finally...
=)

me.
back to my "not-so-hilarious" real life sitcom.

[song] just the two of who?

2005-11-15T14:34:00.000+07:00

From the first time the doctor placed you in my arms
I knew I'd meet death before I'd let you be harmed
Although questions arose in my mind, would I be man enough?
Against wrong, choose right and be standin up
From the hospital that first night
Took an hour just to get the car-seat in right
People drivin' all fast, got me kinda upset
Got you home safe, placed you in your basonette
That night I don't think one wink I slept
As I slipped out my bed, to your crib I crept
Touched your head gently, felt my heart melt
Cause I knew I loved you more than life itself
Then to my knees, and I begged the Lord please
Let me be a good daddy, all he needs
Love, knowledge, discipline too
I pledge my life to you

Just the two of us, we can make it if we try
Just the two of us, (Just the two of us)
Just the two of us, building castles in the sky
Just the two of us, you and I

Five years old, bringin comedy
Everytime I look at you I think man, a little me
Just like me
Wait and see gonna be tall
Makes me laugh cause you got your dad's ears and all
Sometimes I wonder, what you gonna be
A General, a Doctor, maybe a MC
Haha, I wanna kiss you all the time
But I will test that butt when you cut outta line, trudat
Uh-uh-uh why you do that?
I try to be a tough dad, but you be makin me laugh
Crazy joy, when I see the eyes of my baby boy
I pledge to you, I will always do
Everything I can
Show you how to be a man
Dignity, integrity, honor
I don't mind if you lose, long as you can't win it
An you can cry, ain't no shame in it
It didn't work out with me and your mom
But yo, push come to shove
You was conceived in love
So if the world attacks, and you slide off track
Remember one fact, I got your back

[Chorus]

It's a full-time job to be a good dad
You got so much more stuff than I had
I gotta study just to keep with the changin times
101 Dalmations on your CD-ROM
See me-
I'm tryin to pretend I know
On my PC where that CD go
But yo, ain't nuthin' promised, one day I'll be gone
Feel the strife, but trust life does go on
But just in case
It's my place
To impart
One day some girl's gonna break your heart
And ooh ain't no pain like from the opposite sex
Gonna hurt bad, but don't take it out on the next, son
Throughout life people will make you mad
Disrespect you and treat you bad
Let God deal with the things they do
Cause hate in your heart will consume you too
Always tell the truth, say your prayers
Hold doors, pull out chairs, easy on the swears
You're living proof that dreams come true
I love you and I'm here for you

[Chorus to fade]

--------

lagunya bagus ya?
liriknya sedaaap!

wik-en kemarin gue baru beli cd.
belinya di toko cd baru di pim 2.
namanya sociatie kalo gue gak salah.

tokonya enak (menurut gue).
koleksi cd2nya top (standard gue).
service-nya hebat (perasaan gue).

cd yg gue beli dari: olive.
penyanyi jazzy lokal.
kualitas interlokal (buat gue).

salah satu lagunya adalah ini.
dulu lagunya will smith.

gue rekomen cd ini buat dibeli.
enak berat.
gue rekomen cobain toko cd "s" tadi juga.
puas berat.

me.
back to sing [i think!].

what's your signature style?

2005-11-14T09:32:00.000+07:00

it's so you!
elu banget nih juo!

hmmm...
kalimat2 khas gue kalo ketemu dengan beberapa temen "original" gue.
list temen2 kaya ginih yang punya signature style khas cukup panjang di gue.

signature style?
"kombinasi poll yang original dan jelas2 bukan ngeduplikasi orang lain dari:
gaya berpakaian, gaya ngomong, gaya kerja, gaya nulis, gaya clubbing, dll."

penting bangetkah?
penting banget buat gue.
sumpah! penting banget.

gue sendiri ga yakin2 banget kalo gue punya signature style.
ga yakin kalo gue punya signature style yang ok maksut gue.
tapi kalo menurut temen2 baik gue (hehe),
ada beberapa hal yang jelas2 nunjukin itu khas gue.
mudah2an sih gitu yaa...

berarti kan:
paling engga gue masih punyalaah.
paling engga gue masih gak ngeduplikasi orang lain-laah.
terus terang aja gue agak males idup kalo ga punya gaya sendiri.
hehe...

list panjang temen2 gue yang original.
seinget gue, list ini dimulai dari zaman kuliah.
list panjang dengan penamaan2 khas... hehe...
ada "tante tweety".
ada "sexy but virgin forever".
ada "glodok mania".
ada "nerdy student with attitude".
ada "father figure".
ada "seru terus pantang mundur".
ada "mokondo man".
ada banyaklaaah.
syukur banget ada banyak.
syukur banget idup gue jadi lebih berwarna.

zaman kerja dan zaman nongkrong,
gue ketemu makin banyak lagi temen2 yg original.
seneng banget.:)

sayangnya, dari banyaknya temen2 original gue itu,
ada beberapa yang kayanya keukeuh gak mao original.
keukeuh ga mao punya signature style sendiri.
keukeuh malu nunjukin jati dirinya tanpa harus ngikutin gaya orang lain.

sedih ya?

suatu hari nanti, gue cuma mao bilang ke orang2 kaya gituh:
1. seru banget gilaaa kalo punya signature style.
2. duplikasi gaya itu sangat bikin mual.
3. coba deh bikin gaya sendiri. ga bakal bikin lo mati kok buat nyoba.

gituh temans.
anyway, ini cuman sekedar intermezzo kok.
seperti layaknya definisi blog gue ini.

btw, blog adalah bentuk signature style juga lho.
menurut gue lho.
original lho.

jadi yah kalo emang nekat mao punya blog juga harus original!

hehe...

me.
back to my signature sleepy face.

baby, is it really good to be back?

2005-11-09T22:38:00.000+07:00

jam 9 pagi: kerja! yihaaa!
jam 12 siang: kerja dunks. lagi pitching geneh gue. :)
jam 4 sore: masih kerja? heh?
jam 7 malem: kok yaa masih kerja?
jam 9 malem: anjrit! masih juga ya?
jam 10 malem: ahhh bentar lagi beres2 nih kayanyaaa...
jam 11 malem: setan! ternyata masih ada kerjaan...
jam 1/2 12 malem: stralaaaa!

ahhhh...
akhirnya balik juga "hidup" gue.
lenyap sudah romantika liburan slama 7 hari kemaren.

ps: the infamous dr. azahari is dead! yeah!

me.
back to timetracker.

[quote] extra what?

2005-11-09T10:07:00.000+07:00

the difference between "ordinary" and "extra-ordinary", is a simple little extra in it.

[oprah//jennifer aniston]

me.
back to "team aniston".

sex anyone?

2005-11-07T15:25:00.000+07:00

bosen djuo.
check: dvd marathon udah.
check: beresin kamar udah.
check: bersihin kamar mandi udah.
check: nonton di 21 udah.
check: jalan2 ke mall udah.
check: maen2 ke rumah temen udah.

bingung euy.
seharian gak mandi udah.
seharian makan junk food udah.
seharian ke daerah "aneh" udah.
seharian di tempat tidur udah.
seharian blanja2 udah.
seharian ma temen2 lama udah.

bayangin nih.
berhari-hari ga liat kantor? udah bneurr.
berhari-hari ga sms-an ma klien? udah bneurr.
berhari-hari ga ketemu temen kantor? udah bneurr.
berhari-hari ga liat email kantor? udah bneurr.
berhari-hari ga ngitung duit kantor? udah bneurr.
berhari-hari hidup "normal"? udah bneurr.

(sekarang) bete deh.
liburan tinggal 2 hari.
liburan udah depan mata beneurr klaarnya.
liburan kok cepet amat sih?
liburan berikut masih sebulan lagi ya?
liburan 7 hari kok ga berasa geneh sih?
liburan... liburaaaaaannn!!!

2 hari lagi yaaa...
trus, ngapain lagi nih yang sedep?
trus, ngapain lagi yang jadi pamungkas liburan kali ini?
trus, apa yaa yang bisa jadi "gong" liburan gue?

sex?
jawaban paling hayuk yaa si sex ini kayanya.
tapi ama sapa nih yang seru?
kalo ma borok2 lama mah males kalee.
hmmm...

(ayo mikir!! sisa 2 malem lagi nih djuo...)

me.
back to "search".

finally?

2005-11-01T13:21:00.000+07:00

flip flops.
pajamas.
shorts.
sarongs.
naked.
sex.
movies.
dvds.
day-sleepz.
nite-sleepz.
sleepovers.
candles.
out-of-this-fuckin-town day.
drives.
beaches.
mountains.
wines.
beers.
clubs.
malls.
shops.
supermarkets.
toys.
clothes.
jeans.
spends.

friends.

smiles.
laughs.
giggles.
more smiles, laughs and giggles.

happy.

happy holiday guys.
really.
be happy.

minal aidin from the bottom of my heart.
happy lebaran.

me.
back to smile.

tonight?

2005-10-31T19:11:00.000+07:00

rencana tadi malem mao tidur cepet.
rencana tadi malem mao presentasi dengan ok.
rencana tadi malem mao ngerjain macem2 hari ini.
rencana tadi malem mao nanya ke klien soal pitching no 2.
rencana tadi malem hari ini mao buka puasa dengan senang.
rencana tadi malem indah.

rencana tadi malem cuman buat tadi malem ternyata.

rencana malem ini gue mao buka puasa ama temen gue.
rencana malem ini mao pulang dengan cepat.
rencana malem ini mao tidur dengan sangat cepat.
rencana malem ini gue mao mandi yang lama banget.
rencana malem ini gue mao ngelupain banyak hal.
rencana malem ini gue akan istirahat.

rencana gue ini gak muluk2 kan?

gue mau tidur.

me.
back to tv.

ready?

2005-10-30T19:54:00.000+07:00

besok gue mao presentasi.
seperti biasanya pekerjaan sehari-hari yg udah ampir 5 taon.

besok gue mao presentasi.
kali ini klien gue seru2.

besok gue mao presentasi.
tadi udah janjian dress code ma anak2.

besok gue mao presentasi.
tadi materi presentasi udah klaar smua.

besok gue mao presentasi.
sekarang gue lagi siap2 mao bikin budget.

besok gue mao presentasi.
mobil buat berangkat udah dipesen ma girindra.

besok gue mao presentasi.
harusnya sih udah siap yaa.

besok gue mao presentasi.
doain yaahh, kawans.

besok gue mao presentasi.
malem ini mao tidur cepet ahhh... :)

me.
back to budget.

weekend?

2005-10-30T16:02:00.000+07:00

weekend kemana sayang?

pilihan jawaban standard mayoritas masyarakat normal:

a. nonton

b. keluar kota

c. tidur seharian

d. ke rumah sodara

e. keliling mall

f. ke salon

(seperti 2 temen baik gue yang lagi asik nyalon saat ini)

dan lain lain-laaah.

masih banyak banget pilihan buat masyarakat jakarta.

atau siapapun.

pilihan gue sayangnya atau kelihatannya cuman satu sih saat ini.

ke kantor.

lho, cuman satu?

emang gak punya pilihan lain?

kasiaaaannn amaattt siihhh?

pilihan?

hmm...

mungkin punya.

mungkin enggak.

mungkin emang ini jadi pertanyaan yang simple dan abadi buat gue,

tapi sayanganya ga akan pernah bisa bakal gue jawab.

atau belum bisa gue jawab dengan pasti sekarang.

tau deh kenapa.

(jadi, sebenernya sih bisa milih yang lain kali yaa? hehe)

trus, seneng milih ke kantor?

barusan ada temen gue, namanya "ayin", dia nanya gituh ke gue.

pake embel2: waah hari minggu di kantor? kaya donk say?

(sementara dia lagi di salon dengan sahabat gue si joe,

dan dengan canggihnya dan asiknya menggunakan teknologi gprs.

yahoo messenger-an dengan gue via hp.

tipikal wanita seru ibukota masa kini banget ya? hehe)

jawaban gue ke ayin tadi:

kaya? ga beda2 jauh dengan kalo gue stay di rumah.

seneng? yah, iya sih.

hah???

kok gue bisa seneng yaa?

aneh skali bukan?

hmmm...

mungkin karena hari ini gue kerja buat klien yang "menyenangkan".

mungkin karena hari ini gue kerja buat event yang "menyenangkan".

mungkin karena hari ini gue kerja dengan team yang "menyenangkan".

mungkin karena hari ini gue emang lagi dilanda mood yang "menyenangkan".
mungkin banget!

yang pasti, sampe saat ini gue masih seneng di "kerjain' kaya gini.

i love my job.

still.

me.

back to proposal.

from gatot subroto with love?

2005-10-26T18:24:00.000+07:00

just another day-job in my pathetic life.

taking brief: 3 jam
share brief: 2 jam
brainstorming 1: 4 jam
brainstorming 2: 3 jam
share idea 1: 2 jam
share idea 2: 2 jam
review 1: 2 jam
review 2: 2 jam
review 3: 1,5 jam
ngejar2 materi presentasi: 5 jam-an
bikin presentasi: 2 hari (hehe...)
share presentasi: 3 jam
revisi presentasi: 2 jam
print2 presentasi: 1 jam
mock up materi: 2 jam
milih2 baju buat presentasi: setengah jam
bikin2 gimmick buat pas presentasi: setengah jam lagi
nge-burn cd materi soft copy presentasi: setengah jam juga
nge-print dan photo copy handout presentasi: ampir 1 jam-lah
macet2an ke tempat presentasi: 1 jam
nunggu waktu presentasi: 1,5 jam

presentasinya?

...
.....
15 menit?????????!!!!

.. maksut looooo????

hrgghhh..!

me.
back to breath.

thirty something syndrome?

2005-10-25T23:33:00.000+07:00

Hrrrgghhhh...

2 minggu lalu gue ulang tahun chiyynggg.
30 something gituh deh skg gue critanya.

Tua? Mungkin.
Dewasa? Harus.
Gokil? Teuteup.
Stop party? Belum tchentchuuu.
Mulai "mikir"? Hmmm... Sepertinya.

Mikir?
Yeap.
Mikir soal banyak hal, tentunya.
Yang pasti, gue banyak banget mikir soal keinginan2 sih.

Pengen punya rumah.
Pengen punya mobil baru.
Pengen punya kerjaan yang tenang.
Pengen punya bisnis kaya bokap gue pas seumur gue minus 5 tahun keblakang.
Pengen punya toko buku kecil plus cafe di Ubud. Atau di Toba.
Pengen punya tabungan yang cukup.
Pengen punya deposito.
Pengen punya asuransi lengkap.
Pengen punya kesempatan liburan non akhir tahun dengan tenang.
Pengen punya ini.
Pengen punya itu.
Pengen punya ini-itu.
Beberapa keinginan adalah Complimentary.
Beberapa lagi adalah Subtitusi.
Kombinasi? Mmm... mungkin juga sih.

Keluarga? Belom pengen sih sekarang.
Apalagi anak.
Ntarlah.
Sumpah. Ntar aja deh.

Kata temen gue:
Pengennya banyak amat sih djuo??

Kata gue biasanya:
Enggak ah chiyyng...
Beneran kok nih.
Ini gue bukan lagi "mengkhayal-babu" tauk!
(real tone: gak yakin)

Emang banyak banget ya?
Masih wajarlah menurut gue.
Secara umur gue dan sekitar gue juga udah "jadi" gituh lhowww...

Anyway,
Katanya orang2 (siapapun orang2 itu),
kalo mao dapet yang gue mao, gue harus NEKAT.
Jawaban gue biasanya:
1. Senyum
2. Thank you
3. Melanjutkan pembicaraan

Nekat?
Kalo gue belom berani, trus ngapah?
Kalo gue masih belom siap mental, trus gimanah?
Kalo gue masih pengen di (katanya) "zona aman" gue, trusss?
Kalo gue masih butuh waktu buat "nekat" tadi, apah dunkz?

Toh,
Ini pan idup2 gue juga pan yak?
Ini pan ribet2nya gue juga pan yak?

Udahlah chiyyngg.
Kalo kata temen baek gue mah:
Beli rumah dulu aja kaleee djuooo...
THR pan kita skrg yakk?? =)
(yahh, kalo emang masih blom cukup juga, THR taon depan deh. Hehe.)

Jawaban akhir gue:
Yasssiiih...
(real tone: teteup nggantung dan gak yakin)

Sudahlah.

me.
back to work.

new blog?

2005-10-25T15:49:00.000+07:00

this is my new blog.
i don't know why i made it.
then again, i don't know how to live my life also.
so why bother, right?

come again if you like it.

me.
back to chat.